this evening i approach the godhead ....

my house has no heat in the living room, and no effective thermostat in the kitchen.  so, it is hot in the kitchen where i cook, and cold in the living room where i watch "the big bang theory,"  bbc "whodunnits," and "bones" and "law & order" reruns.

i am like the alligator in the "piggly wiggly stories," always too hot or too cold.

i am, and have, an old relic from my last "previous relationship," a collapsing recliner in exchange for the stove, washer and dryer, lawn mower and weed eater left behind with the previous relationship.  i sit in it, very close, so that i can hear the t.v. at levels other people call deafening.

sorts out the rif raf.

well, this evening, i snuggled up under a fleece throw around my legs and a pendleton wool shawl over my shoulders, cup of tea on a stool next to the recliner, and watched about three hours of "big bang" without so much as moving except to use the remote to turn down the volume from the t.v.

just toasty warm, the shawl drawn up over the back off my neck and ears, to keep a cold i am facing down at bay.  just like a baby in the womb, except it was dry, with light and not at all drafty.  (draughty in england?  who knows?)

just perfect.

in sync with the universe, no shooting pains anywhere, no sudden inspirations to get the old ticker up and running again when it decides to skip a beat.  quite frankly, i would almost welcome no. 2 telling me not to eat eggs and butter in the place of the old ticker telling me who is boss.  i take little joy anymore reminding the old ticker that when it kills me, it kills itself as well.  the damn thing shudda figured that out long ago.

but, this evening.  just bliss.

and, as i age, i find the notion of god intellectually sound, and reassuring in a way that i cannot fully explain to you.  and, quite thankful, for a very pleasant evening spent warm under the blankets, and a full belly, and no one banging on my door.

john jay @ 01.10.2011

p.s.  and, a little reloading project in the basement, just to keep it that way.  more on that, tomorrow.

Comments

[Vasko]

This is excellent stuff, John.

[john jay]

vasko:

you are sir, a gentleman and a scholar.

always a pleasure to hear from you, and thank you for the read.

john

p.s. and, vasko, please keep winging your articles my way. they are much appreciate.